bad mornin

I started the day at 5 a.m :) lately I had bad dreams. I kept dreaming about school stuff. today, I was in the car, heading to village and got email from EER, they said that they rejected my journal. I want to cry right away but I didn’t want anybody to see me crying :”” I directly messaged Pak Arief, he said “it’s okay, let’s try another journal” I pulled myself together for the rest of the day. but deep down I’m dying. I’m crying right now. my Mom called me just now and I want to cry, but I hold my tears back. btw, today’s lunch is so good. it’s vegetarian lunch. I have my cold brewed coffee with lots of sugar. and helped Jenni to fix her laptop, helped Iz to buy charger via shopee. but still I wanna cry right now :(