lalalulu

this is what’s all in my head for 4 days. I just realized that I’m 23. all this time I thought I’m a 20. crazy right? dulu pas 21 juga mikirnya gua 20. pas 22 juga 20. pas 23 juga 20. gua gak ngerti deh kenapa kaya gitu, it was 3 years ago padahal. gua sadar pas ada tukang listrik dateng terus gua buka gerbang. Mama gua nyusul, orang listriknya ngomong, “ini anak Tante?” “iya yang paling gede.” “saya baru liat.” “kuliah di Bogor.”  “saya kira baru lulus SMA, berarti 19 ya?” “20 tahun dia” TUH KAN, MAMA GUA AJA MIKIR GUA 20 TAHUN. terus gua tetep mikir ini, kok gua mikir gua tetep 20 tahun selama 3 tahun ya. HELLO RUTH! jadi inget, abis tahun baru kemarin main sama Bang Agung. dia ngerjain thesis dan gua chill out myself after having final term and not sleeping for 3 days! we sat outside, I have my caramel macchiato, feeling the breeze. it was at 10 o’clock, a cold night. “menurut lu gua umur berapa Ruth? kalo lu gak kenal gua” “25” “berarti gua terlihat jauh lebih muda dari umur asli gua dong ya” “iya Bang” then I asked him back the same question. he stared at me “19 ” langsung agak teriak gitu kan gua wkwk. “badan lu kecil sih” TUH KAN! salah banget gak sih gua mikir gua 20 tahun selama 3 tahun kwkwkw bzzzz. semalem gua nyuruh my sister yang baru kelas 1 SMA nginjekin gua. dia bilang “ngeri gua nginjekin lu, tulang semua.” NAH! I feel like I’m not that thin tho. tapi gua tetep mikirin tentang ini. well I’m 23. welcome this 23-year-old-girl to the club! wkwkwkwk. ooh iya, semalem nonton Idol, dan Ghea was a great closing. she sang Kangen-Dewa. I love this song but the way she sang it makes me love the song more. terus today gua tidur seharian, lupa bales chat. barusan nonton series lagi, Rachel was in labor and she’s having a baby girl! nontonnya sedih seneng gitu. tuh kan, gua gampang banget dicekokin ginian. sedihnya, she’s having the baby with Ross but they aren’t married. gak tau sih episode selanjutnya, I hope they ended up together. Rachel and Ross were seeing each other back then, tapi broke up for years because Ross slept with other girl when they’re on a break! until one night the atmosphere drove them there and BAM Rachel got pregnant. once, Ross asked to start dating again but Rachel gave him a no. mungkin karena gua masih Timur banget ya, yang clockwise banget gitu, you should be married before having baby. menye banget sih gua. Rachel and Ross’s baby doing great. ahhhh. tuh menye banget gua wkwk. dari hari Minggu kemarin kayanya kehidupan gua isinya mimpi punya anak, baca novel yang isinya pregnant, nonton series yang isinya begitu juga. hemmmm so what if your Mom introduced you to a 33-year-old guy, handsome, and settle in financial? please I’m just 23! tapi ya, Beno is 8 years older than Alexandra. but Beno is yesh kaya dreams come true. he’s a doctor, handsome, love Alexandra, treat her like a queen, and rich! wkwk please Ruth, itu cuma novel. intinya Ruth mau chasing her dreams dulu. the one and only gak bakal kemana-mana. terus ya, I feel something is off inside. that’s why I chose to sleep all day long. kayanya ini postingan gua panjang banget deh. bosen ya bacanya? yaudah deh. dadah.