train and alone

I’m the real procrastinator. semalem abis mandi bukannya ngerjain laporan pendahuluan malah ngepoin ignya Lucinta Luna bzzz. abis itu baru ngerjain. abis itu bukan tidur tapi nonton. Ruth Ruth bzzz. I just need distraction, I didn’t feel right till this morning. so last night I slept myself and woke by a phone call at 7. my Dad. he was in Medan and my family there wanted to have a video call with me. PLEASE. I’M A MESS. I’M JUST WOKE UP AND NOT READY YET FOR A PRESS LOL. so I watched my face in a rush. I talked to my Aunty and Tata. then I start to make up with myself. I know what makes feel wrong. I didn’t do the revision of my journal because I’m too exhausted. I was afraid it would be a major revision. I have postponed the revision for 10 days. I have been through this before last year. I was crying at that time and I don’t want to cry anymore. so this morning, after having the chichat, I pushed myself to open my email. it was a minor revision. thank God. and it only took 1 hour. but I’ve been delaying it for 10 DAYS. RUTH!!! and the I had my disjune and go back to sleep. woke up at 12 and had class at 13. praktikum. selalu suka. tapi ini lama banget sampe jam 16.30. bzzzzzzzzzx. telat dapet bis. padahal udah nunggu sampe jam 7. ngecheck Find Friends ada Rasis di kampus. dan nebeng dia ke stasiun. DANKE MBLOOOO. goshhh. it was my second time to go alone by train. agak deg degan. karena gak kebiasaan naik kendaraan umum. my parents don’t allow me and it made me to today. soon in the future, I’ll teach my kids how to use public transportion. makanya gua kayak yang agak canggung awkward gitu but still try to look cool sampe orang ngira gua sombong, padahal gua insecure inside. I don’t want my kids to be like me. I want them to better. super lama banget naik kereta. sampe pegel padahal dapet duduk dari awal sampe akhir. nyampe rumah jam 22.30. thank God